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Thursday, February 22, 2007

ferbuary position to spring


i have been visiting and enjoying the poetry thursday site. here's my poem for this thursday-fitting my sense of longing for spring. "a single green sprouting thing would restore me" indeed!

February: Thinking of Flowers
by
Jane Kenyon

Now wind torments the field,
turning the white surface back
on itself, back and back on itself,
like an animal licking a wound.
Nothing but white--the air, the light;
only one brown milkweed pod
bobbing in the gully, smallest
brown boat on the immense tide.
A single green sprouting thing
would restore me. . . .
Then think of the tall delphinium,
swaying, or the bee when it comes
to the tongue of the burgundy lily.

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

black and white memories..(self portrait tues)

 
april 1964...ten years old. i remember this day and the happiness of doing cartwheels in the parking lot of the national food store next to my house. some sensations/experiences do not fade away. Posted by Picasa

Thursday, February 15, 2007

eye am (spc)

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Wednesday, February 07, 2007

oddly connected

i gather so many treasures while traveling on my favorite blogs...one leads to another...then i'll follow a comment to the source, finding something unexpected... for instance, zach braff mentioned "I implore anyone reading this to immediately make plans to go see the new Broadway show, "Spring Awakening". It is the most inspiring piece of art I have seen in far too long. I have yet to lead you astray thus far. You will be blown away!
It's about growing up and loneliness and puberty and sex and lust and struggling not to drowned in an ocean of other people's opinions about who you're supposed to be. It's like "Dead Poet's Society" on extacy set to music. It is quite simply a masterpiece.
call 212 239-6200 for tickets. Trust me."
i did check it and love the idea and from this video piece it looks incredible.the music is staying with me all day(always a sign of a good musical for me) i then i ventured over to wenda's
and her quotes about "possibilities" seemed like a notion far different from the angst of the video, however, it is simply another human sensation. after discussing "life" last night, with my amazing son of 17 years i felt both those very sensations(angst and possibilities).

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

spc-black and white (in a gray world)


"you wander from room to room, hunting for the diamond necklace...that is already around your neck!"~ jalal-uddin rumi

Monday, February 05, 2007

monday mood- content

today, as i saw the word at moody monday "content" i spent some time contemplating my understanding of the concept.... from last week feeling off center -all i can say is "what a difference a day makes". at this moment i am content. with all the feelings and that includes the uncomfortable painful ones.(though i do admit to a preference for feeling good!) actually, i am getting the movement that proceeds many of the difficult experiences earlier than in the past.(yea!!)

Friday, February 02, 2007

it began many years ago...........


i had been feeling cynical the last few days- tired of other peoples opinions and statements made in certainty...as though anyone really knows a "right" way. it was an uncomfortable sensation, i felt my expression becoming artificial and blank. in my womens group today, i was able to recognize how defensive that posture can be. i remembered, (with support) that i had been disregarding my own intuition, and when i listen to my self and trust that i am entitled to my own way of seeing things, that is enough. i don't have to have proof or understand -it simply is. i sadly remembered how young i was when i first began to silence my intuition, my knowing, and even stopped paying attention to what my body was signaling - fear, and not knowing another way, stopped me cold . it seems enough right now to just assure the little girl in me that i, as a woman can do things differently now with the choices and intentions i am aware of today.