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Sunday, December 31, 2006

i really am naive








the first sight of land from the plane was the runway, as we came out of the dense fog at laguardia airport. that may have been a sign as i look back -that as much as i think things should look one way- they often don't. these are three of my traveling companions..my children. and i often think our life experiences should look one way-they often don't! the four days in new york where full of moments that where heavenly and a few that where truly hellish. each of these incredibly wonderful beings make my life interesting (and very difficult) at times. fred and i have said (more than once) never again will we travel together...and less than 24 hours at home -i would plan the next trip in a new york minute! highlights were rockefeller center with the tree and skaters/ seeing the apollo marquee tribute to james brown/ time at the guggenheim and moma/ strolling soho/broadway plays(rent and spamalot)/bryant park marketplace/ and takashimaya department store.

Monday, December 25, 2006

"i believe that miracles happen everyday..."


i have been hesitant in writing lately- seems like i am uncertain about alot. i have thought of a way around that -which is just stating what i am certain of.... i saw los lonely boys on wttw's austin city limits the other night and though i have liked their music before -something happened (i love when this occurrs) and i got so taken with the performance/music that i have been smiling ever since(all i have to do is crank up my ipod). when they sang the line that miracles happen everyday something rocked my spirit! I'm also certain that james browns music has always got me moving...i can not be still when "make it funky" plays. today, after i heard of his death i prepared for our christmas dinner -cleaning, cooking, and even my run on the treadmill listening to his incredible soulful music. this photo, one of many i have collected of random people that happen to sit in front of me , was taken in new york a few months ago. i was on the boat that goes over to the statue of liberty. it reminds me of something i am certain of--i am excited that we leave for new york tomorrow for a few days with the kids. the times we can travel together have become rare and so this should be fun. i really like taking in the sights and filling my senses.

Saturday, December 23, 2006

photo friday "weather"

the weather has been grey, wet, yet moments of sun do come through. it is mild for dec. and makes travel and shopping for the holidays easy.

Saturday, December 16, 2006

come light the menorah....

i woke this morning knowing that i welcomed this day--i can't explain it much beyond hearing those words in my mind,"i welcome this day". there was no need to question it...i smiled and thought how wonderful. (i mean, there have been days that i wake feeling apprehensive or blue.) so i got the day going looking forward to all that may happen. it has been a good day- nothing outrageous, nothing spectacular, the course of the day has taken me through most of the emotions- sadness, anger, joy, love, fear- none however, at an intense level (maybe the joy was intense when i saw nate's face at home when he returned from uni for winter break--yes that was intense) we lit the candles as a family tonight. i mentioned favorite holiday songs in my last post and forgot my favorite hannukah tune ....... Chanukah, Oh Chanukah, come light the Menorah
Let's have a party, we'll all dance the hora
Gather round the table, we'll all have a treat
Sivivon to play with, and latkes to eat.

And while we are playing
The candles are burning bright
One for each night, they shed a sweet light
To remind us of days long ago.
One for each night, they shed a sweet light
To remind us of days long ago. ( damn, life is good
...not a part of the song, just the way i feel this evening!)

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

holiday music

nancy at genre cook shop tagged me to name my 5 favorite holiday songs.....if she only knew the craziness i go through in trying to decide a selection of my favorites!! but, i am attempting to change the way i hear and interpret a request such as this. knowing this is a a simple- fun- list (that can change tomorrow- or later today) here we go **** happy christmas(war is over) by john lennon/yoko ono ******snow on george winstons december cd ****** o holy night **** ave maria ***** do you hear what i hear sung by the roaches. how great, in deciding what to choose i have been listening to beautiful timely songs, and am feeling in the spirit. thanks nancy.

Saturday, December 09, 2006

photo friday ..."fresh"


rialto market

Thursday, December 07, 2006

catching the holiday spirit




i realize it takes me longer to get in the mood to celebrate the winter holidays the last couple of years. maybe because the children are older, i don't feel motivated to take on the physical work that goes with decorating the house. maybe, i don't want to do the same thing- because i feel i must. i do know, i get moments of incredible joy when i sit alone looking at the tree and memories come back from years ago....it just seems like a lot of work . maybe, i just need to complain a little before i kick it into gear! And i knew i should have gone out and bought the tree last week when it was mild and near 60...but today it's frigid and that option is gone. last night while i was out picking maya up from lacrosse practice, i was moved by the lights in our town. it is a special sight/sensation to see the downtown square lit up. today i noticed a small pond at someones home with this santa in a row boat. yes, i am getting in the spirit- in spite of myself....

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

overwhelmed...with out a cause




as i sit here in a more together place- i will recap the madness i experienced (at times) in response to studio fridays topic of "favorite color combinations". first i thought, how great -i have some real favorites. then as i spent the day noticing the combos that struck me - i started to spiral into some crazy place -an internal chattering of- which one do i like better? which do i choose? this one or that one? how many? which one is my favorite? etc.etc.etc. even now (a moment ago i thought i was together) i can feel the choices of which image can speak to this- starting the chatter again. so, what i am getting is this little prompt is helping me to understand a few different things...1) i am not my color choices( pretty basic-but i forget) 2) i change in my tastes from day to day(and that's a good thing!) 3) i can make a statement and it's good enough for any moment in time.4) i lost sight of the purpose (a joyful honoring of color)and want to remind myself more often of my intention .... and the lessons keep popping up as the day goes on.

Friday, December 01, 2006

photo friday- "stillness"

the word fits this mornings venture into the park.....no one's playing baseball today.