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Friday, September 29, 2006

studio friday- toot your own horn

this collage was the image on my last postcard. i think it does a good job of featuring the clay work i love to do. check others ideas at the studio friday site.

Thursday, September 28, 2006

the peace of wild things

i will take off tomorrow after the kids leave for school, to the northwoods of wisconsin. we had two small cabins(now there is one) deep in the woods on a beautiful small lake. since the pipes are in need of repair often affecting basic services (like drinking water and the toilet) i am the only one wanting to go there whenever i can. i really need to get out in the woods and fill my spirit with the beauty and mystery of the earth. then i can come home and pick up where i left off. which brings to mind this poem that fits perfectly for this moment......... The Peace of Wild Things
When despair for the world grows in me and I wake in the night at the least sound in fear of what my life and my children's lives may be,I go and lie down where the wood drake rests in his beauty on the water, and the great heron feeds.I come into the peace of wild things who do not tax their lives with forethoughtof grief. I come into the presence of still water.And I feel above me the day-blind starswaiting with their light. For a timeI rest in the grace of the world, and am free.
— Wendell Berry

Monday, September 25, 2006


moody monday word for today is live..( as in live wire). i moved very slow and hesitantly today. the more i wanted to accomplish, the more uncertain i became. i feel anything but a live wire. i especially like definition #6 Not yet exploded but capable of being fired: live ammunition. maybe tomorrow i will explode...........

Friday, September 22, 2006


this was my girl, maya, back in the good old days.... as a parent, i doubted myself less and knew what needed to be done more often. oh the magical experience of blowing bubbles! now that she is fourteen - i find myself weighing my words, not responding as instinctively(which is in her best interest i assure you) and fighting judgment about our differences. when i center and take care of myself i see how divine she is, and am grateful for all she teaches me.

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

...with penland friends

penland is a craft school in north carolina that is magical. it is tucked away in the mountains and is a special artist community. the studios are always open and i have been fortunate to have been able to learn from incredible teachers. the sessions run for two weeks and have taken me out of the routine into a world of possibility each time. i didn not get to penland this year- but look forward to january when the schedule is posted for next summer. here is jimmy clark sharing his story in brings such fond memories.

Monday, September 18, 2006

catching up........

the last 10 days flew by.... i was running on empty after the coyote show. showing my work is still new enough that i get more anxious than i can handle and it spills into my general psyche. i question who i am, what i am doing, what is the purpose of art etc etc etc. it takes lots of conscious breathing, patience with myself, and convincing myself to stay present. i am determined to continue and hope to get the breaks i desire. i unpacked (somewhat) from the show and repacked for a great clay conference in indianapolis on printing and imagery on clay. the gift of 2 outstanding ,talented and generous teachers made it well worth it. a bonus was co-ordinating this conference with a side trip to bloomington to see nathan inducted into the kelly business school at iu. i am so in love with that kid! when i recall spending an evening with him i soften and the dissappointment i have felt (most of this day) with myself as a mother eases up. it's odd that i really do believe these chidren are unfolding perfectly- yet, i still get swept away at times, thinking(EGO) it is under my control. today was one of those days, if only i did this, or didn't to that was a refrain that kept popping up. thankfully i am aware of the sound of the wind and the cool breeze coming in the window right now, to keep me sensing the joy.

photo fri-"bright"

homecoming dresses... the girls were excited and dressed in their finest. so bright-so young.

Friday, September 08, 2006

photo friday- "boy"

this was a difficult choice...i hear boy and think of mine. however, this boy caught my eye as he lay in a public water fountain. it is one i come back to and ponder.

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

self-portrait challenge- "e-circle"

about 15 years ago, i experienced an intensive womens weekend and began to open to the support and joy that comes from a circle of women. this is my empowerment group -we attempt to meet each week and do whatever needs to be done to support each other. ideally, we don't try to fix or judge one another, and sometimes it's just the opportunity to speak our voice and be heard. we have been together many years now, and come from all walks of life. i find the strengh of the group in it's differences, and each idividual's willingness to go to uneasy places in our selves to get to be the woman we choose to be. though it can be difficult, there are also moments to share festivities ,and here we are recently at the wedding of one of our daughters. as i look at this photo, i am amazed at the human condition to hold such pain and such happiness (sometimes in the same moment).

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

that's why i took the walk...

i have been working to prepare for a show at around the coyote and at this point (starts in two days) i start to get a bit stressed with the details. i also go through a questioning of my work - is it good enough? will anyone see what i do? can i do this? can i earn a few bucks?etc etc.. this is a great experience to practice staying present , and staying in touch with myself. so tonight, i listened when something called me outside and found the moon letting me know it will all be just fine.

Friday, September 01, 2006

photo fri-"silver"

love piling on silver bracelets............