mayseek life

thoughts...images...sensations...

Saturday, July 29, 2006

photo fri-"portrait"

chicago tourist

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

self potrait tues-"self as...part of the whole"

the joy of having an out of town guest is visiting chicago sights downtown. one of my favorites is the the kapoor cloudgate sculpture known as the bean. i love the changing view of the city as you circle around- ever changing- the skyline, people, and the sky itself. lovely!

Sunday, July 23, 2006

and there's the not so common


photo fri- "common"


sometimes, cracks in the concrete are simply beautiful.

Thursday, July 20, 2006

current and ancient history



about ten years ago my search for a missing piece of my personal history developed into what is now a solid (mostly) yet often confusing identity. the stars where aligned (or whatever it was they were doing) and miracles of timing and perseverance unfolded.... that was then, and this is now- my cousin visiting for a few weeks. here's to connection and how somethings are meant to be. distance and denial are overcome.

Monday, July 17, 2006

photo fri-"remarkable"


i was lucky enough to spend some time in the northwoods of wisconsin this month. we have a fine little cabin on a quiet little lake called burnham. long weekends on the lake -canoeing, walking, simply being. without a computer, i got word from maya that the photo fri word was remarkable. i wandered the area picking out thousands of remarkable things--this lotus blossom was the most remarkable.

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

self portrait challenge-"self as..depp co-star"

why not?

just stop and think

as the man says- "i don't want to offend anyone, this is just a wake up call"
there are moments i can't comprehend that my dailey routine continues while this war wages on.

Monday, July 10, 2006

inspire me-image transfers


it is a joy to play with images. i did not have success with the transfers from the transparencies (maybe i am using the wrong computer for copies-i need to get more info) losing all the detail when transferring. i do however like the transparecies themselves and can play with these.(the two images in front.) the two cards in the middle are the tape tranfers - such a fun venture.

Friday, July 07, 2006

fri photo-"summer"

clemantis in bloom

Monday, July 03, 2006

inspire me thurs,(on monday)

this weeks "body parts" theme. my ring holder is made from a plaster cast of my hand. i have been noticing this site "inspire me thursday" and can use the direction.
today really being monday i am heading up to the northwoods of wisconsin...there i will get to be inspired in a manner only that can be achieved by nature.

Saturday, July 01, 2006

one day at a time....



the struggle is, at this moment, to find a place to hide from the overload of thought...there is a stream of tears- and i know they help carry the sadness out of my body. the mystery of driving along contemplating how my life would be if i let alcohol back in my life....just an occasional glass (really bottle or 2) of wine, like some charming creatives i see-after all, eddie vedder of pearl jam slammed back wine on stage at the concert the other night. i get hooked in the allure. i'm thinking it's been 11 years back on june 21st since i chose to be sober. this was the first time that day came and went without my realization. so these thoughts are familiar,the ones i had this morning while driving errands(it does seem like they are occurring more often though) when maya called from camp to tell me she just got word that a class mate of hers that lives down our street (and at whose house fred and i passed last night and wondered why so many cars where there...was it a graduation party?must be ...all the boys from maya's class were there...) lost his sister in a car crash a few days ago. she was 16 years old. so, far from a happy celebration, it was a coming together to hold the grief. this is the same classmate that 3 years ago, had his father die of a heartattack while out of town on business. now it's him and his mother. this is when the tears started and then the damn overload of thought began...does it matter whether i drink or not? who cares anyway? why..why..why..why this ..why that............ so, it's backto the moment-the tears have dried and i believe i'll be reading this weekend overtime -all my favorite teachers pema chodron, jon kabot zinn, mipham sakyong, the poets. these are the creatives that actually get me through the grief....eddie vender is a teacher that helps me savour the sadness also- there is place for it all. one moment at a time.