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Friday, June 30, 2006

photo friday-"happiness is music medicine"

at this moment happiness is the energy i still feel from watching pearl jam and tom petty perform at milwaukee fest last night. a birthday gift for nick on his 17th birthday. the most incredible experience was to watch eddie vedder and tom petty share the stage. inspiring!

Wednesday, June 28, 2006

last of pop art selves


this past month's theme for the self portrait challege of pop art, was a good opportunity to learn to use some programs that we have on the computer from my daughter. who knew i could make multiples and colorize for hours?? the posibilities are endless....

Monday, June 26, 2006

monday, and i've got stuff to do....

Procrastination by Lev

Sunday, June 25, 2006

hey, that's my idea....

just saw this light-up sign for cars that indicate different messages to the driver behind. i use to think about having a display flash my message to other drivers, usually while i was driving behind a slow driver in the left lane. nothing harsh- something like "slower traffic please move to right lane". now that this is available, i don't know how good of an idea it really is. i like the "thanks", and the "sad face" is fun-but i don't want someone flashing "move ass hole" as they leave me in the dust. maybe it's wise to keep our thoughts to ourselves and count to ten.

Friday, June 23, 2006

"health" -photo friday

chocolate, from my favorite shop. makes me feel good -just thinking of it. my two favorites are -1) red fire: ancho chili powder + ceylon cinnamon + dark chocolate and 2) olio d'oliva: extra virgin olive oil + white chocolate + dried kalamata olives. they really are incredible. health -being a condition of soundness, can be enhanced with a few good truffles!

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

self portrait- popart #3


maya is such a part of who i am. a powerful influence on my state of being. after 14 years she will leave for camp (in california-ucla!!) on sunday. it will be the longest time we have been apart - 4 weeks. though i am missing her already, i know we both need this time on our own.

Tuesday, June 20, 2006

thoughts in perspective

Powers Of Ten
i love how this film helps to take me out of my familiar for a moment....

Monday, June 19, 2006

monday and the notion of "accumulation"


last night after some parenting "issues" the day before, fred and i began reading jon kabat zinn's wonderful book
Everyday Blessings: The Inner Work of Mindful Parenting . this is a book i have turned to often over the last 15 years, and it's that time again. happily, f is open to to message and we will read together. i am still in delight with a quote that begins the book,"Once the realization is accepted that even between the closest human beings infinite distances continue, a wonderful living side by side can grow, if they succeed in loving the distance between them which makes it possible for each to see the other whole against the sky." Rainer Maria Rilke i am appreciating the succinct image this provides me to appreciate our familys many individual pesonalities/spirits.when i embrace the distance/differences i can see them whole against the sky! next, the word accumulation is screaming at me this day- everywhere i look i see the accumulation of something, books,magazines, papers, pictures,ideas, thoughts, items-items-items..... i feel the need to begin to release some things.today may be the day!

Wednesday, June 14, 2006

delicious to lose everything...


"The Poet Laureate Consultant in Poetry to the Library of Congress serves as the nation's official lightning rod for the poetic impulse of Americans. During his or her term, the Poet Laureate seeks to raise the national consciousness to a greater appreciation of the reading and writing of poetry."( library of congress website) as i listened to our new poet laureate, donald hall, interviewed on npr today, i remembered i bought his book "without" a couple of years ago. it speaks of his wifes illness and death, and the grief he experienced. it's a beauty and he impresses me as a warm soul with a gift for words. in his honor- as the lightning rod for my poetic impulse-i would like to share one of my favorites:
Affirmation
by Donald Hall
To grow old is to lose everything.
Aging, everybody knows it.
Even when we are young,
we glimpse it sometimes, and nod our heads
when a grandfather dies.
Then we row for years on the midsummer
pond, ignorant and content. But a marriage,
that began without harm, scatters
into debris on the shore,
and a friend from school drops
cold on a rocky strand.
If a new love carries us
past middle age, our wife will die
at her strongest and most beautiful.
New women come and go. All go.
The pretty lover who announces
that she is temporary
is temporary. The bold woman,
middle-aged against our old age,
sinks under an anxiety she cannot withstand.
Another friend of decades estranges himself
in words that pollute thirty years.
Let us stifle under mud at the pond's edge
and affirm that it is fitting
and delicious to lose everything.

Monday, June 12, 2006

spc- pop art


one of the kids said they no longer wanted their lava lamp....it's mine now!

"joe the king"

Click here: Joe the King (1999) today , while on the treadmill, i got involved watching this movie on the independent film channel. it's about a 14yr old boy in the difficult place of dysfunction, madness, and trauma. i found the film touching me deeply as i remembered my own childhood experiences of loneliness and neglect. so often having to make decisions for myself with little guidance or support. the film was powerful and poignant. my heart ached to watch some scenes of this movie. today i have loving thoughts for all the children in that situation and the adults in their lives that for whatever reason are unable to do different.

Friday, June 09, 2006

photo friday..."poverty"


i hesitate to label this as poverty... it may be just a tougher way to earn money.

Wednesday, June 07, 2006

roman holiday


they could have been anywhere- but they were in rome. as this day wraps up i am feeling a bit taken with endings, the school year is finishing and maya graduates from 8th grade soon. nick took his last final today and this evening we went to his lacrosse banquet. so as i feel reflective, i browse through the 865 pictures i took in italy last june. because that, i intuitively know, is the medicine i need. it always brings a smile and takes me to a place of great joy-" traveled memory-land". i can stay there as long as i need and usually arrive back with something i needed-perspective, gratitude, curiousity....possibilities. tonight, i return with appreciation for the simple and ordinary in life , and how exquisite that is.

Tuesday, June 06, 2006

popular culture meets self portrait

i have some addictions that i am trying to keep in check- some days i am more successful than others. i really like coffee /esspresso and am aware than sometimes the caffeine craving takes control over the logic of spending too much on coffee!

Sunday, June 04, 2006

absolutely glorious days

this weekend was filled with energy determined by choice...saturday morning i attended a workhop given by esther and jerry hicks-really interesting. too complex to explain at this time other than their books are inspiring and resonate some deep truths for me (at this point of time). they express- positive energy,the law of attraction, abundance -all those good things!writing books with titles like The Amazing Power of Deliberate Intent : Living the Art of Allowing and Ask and It Is Given: Learning to Manifest Your Desires got my attention long ago and recently helped me get on track aiming to live as i desire. as with everything, i take what helps me move forward and leave what i don't care to take. to finish off the day on a high note , we went to see blondie and the new cars with todd rundgren . it was a terrific concert with debbie harry aka blondie, sounding strong and clear -she took me back in time and it was a good memory. and i love todd- his "healer" albumn was one of my favorites (when i listened to albums!) he too ,was also looking good. i am aware that the aging issue comes up for me again as i see an older audience(my peers) at yet another concert.... but that's another story. today was a sunny hot day at the ball park watching the world champion chicago white sox. GO SOX! it can't get much better than this.

Friday, June 02, 2006

photo friday "new"

a new poppy graces the garden.